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Friday, August 28, 2009

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Lots of things have happened in this little space - certainly more than I ever expected in October 2004 when I started this blog. But now Chris and I have our own domain, and we're ready to not worry about adult content warnings and random deletions. Please update your links - all future content will be available at this address:

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This blog will stay here so any links in existence will still work. But I won't be adding anything.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Ferule

I have lately been obsessed with LibraryThing, which is an online card catalog service for those of us with personal libraries. It links to Amazon and the Library of Congress for its source data, and I have to confess I am obsessed. It will take me a long time to upload all of the books in the library - maybe forever. But never fear I will pursue that aim faithfully.

I have also been obsessed with Chris, or more correctly, with being physically attached to him. Either way, we've spent many hours in bed lately and this is a Very Good Thing, if you know what I mean.

Summer is over on Tuesday when the princess starts first grade. She seems so little and girlish and perfectly childish. My heart cries that she is not ready for first grade, but she calmly exclaimed Wednesday last, "Mama, I tried really hard to do that and I could do it!" So she's already learned the critical lesson, right?

I'm still meeting the bus at the corner after school is out. And I'm still holding her hand in the parking lot. So there.

In my spare time, I've been re-reading Little Men by Louisa May Alcott. It strikes me that I could read this to the princess, but I can't imagine wading through one of my personal favorites, Little Women, with her yet.

In any event, I ran across this excerpt, which I had forgotten. Those who are interested in having their hands strapped will find it especially interesting if forgotten, all of us who have been tempted to tell a white lie now and then might find it especially tempting otherwise. (As a parent though, I have to say that this particular course of action is probably better left in a book.)

"See now, when you tell a lie, I will not punish you, but you shall punish me."

"How?" asked Nat, startled at the idea.

"You shall ferule me in the good old-fashioned way; I seldom do it myself, but it may make you remember better to give me pain than to feel it yourself."

"Strike you?" Oh, I couldn't!" cried Nat.

"Then mind that tripping tongue of yours..."
But of course, the poor boy cannot mind it for more than a few days.

... and taking Nat by the hand led him into the school and shut the door.

The boys looked at one another in silence for a minute, then Tommy slipped ou and peeping in at the half-closed blinds, beheld a sight that quite bewildered him. Mr. Bhaer had just taken down the long rule that hung over his desk, so seldom used that it was covered in dust.

"My eye! He's going to come down heavy on Nat this time. Wish I hadn't told," thought good-natured Tommy, for to be feruled was the deepest disgrace at this school.

"You remember what I told you last time?" said Mr. Bhaer, sorrowfully, not angrily.

"Yes, but please don't make me, I can't bear it," cried Nat, backing up against the door with both hands behind him, and a face full of distress.

"Why don't he up and take it like a man? I would," thought Tommy, though his heart beat fast at the sight.

"I shall keep my word, and you must remember to tell the truth. Obey me, Nat, take this and give me six good strokes."

Tommy was so staggered by this last speech that he nearly tumbled down the bank, but saved himself, and hung onto the window ledge, staring in with eyes as round as the stuffed owl's on the chimney-piece.

Nat took the rule, for when Mr. Bhaer spoke in that tone everyone obeyed him and, looking as scared and guilty as if about to stab his master, he gave two feeble blows on the broad hand held out to him. Then he stopped and looked up half-blind with tears but Mr. Bhaer said steadily:

"Go on, and strike harder."

As if seeing that it must be done, and eager to have the hard task soon over, Nat drew his sleeve across his eyes and gave two more quick hard strokes that reddened the hand, yet hurt the giver more.

"Isn't that enough?" he asked in a breathless sort of tone.

"Two more," was all the answer, and he gave them, hardly seeing where they fell, then threw the rule all across the room, and hugging the kind hand in both his own, laid his face down on it sobbing out in a passion of love and shame and penitence, "I will remember! Oh! I will!"

Then Mr. Bhaer put an arm about him, and said in a tone as compassionate as it had just now been firm, "I think you will. Ask the dear God to help you, and try to spare us both another scene like this."

Tommy saw no more, for he crept back to the hall, looking so excited and sober that the boys crowded round him to ask what was being done to Nat....
I understand that technically this is not one of Alcott's better stories. It drifts aimlessly and is clearly a filler between Little Women and the mis-titled Jo's Boys. There are some fantastic chapters, particularly one concerning John Brooke. She lets more Sunday School into the story and, to be truthful, her editor seemed to have been less than diligent.

I like it anyway. The boys are charming, human, and tempered by little Daisy. The Bhaers are not wholly successful in their educational practices, and face failure as well as success.

In any event, it's more amusing than late night television, and that's all that's really required when I simply want to put away the cares of the world and think about something pleasant before I sleep.

Monday, August 17, 2009

Not Amused

Sunday, August 16, 2009

Mayberry

The princess is home. She immediately launched into a deconstruction of her room, and Chris waited two nights while my mother was here and then expressed a desire to see me naked again. The inadvertent, unintentional two days since we'd last had sex had evidently made an impression. Do you think if I avoid him for two more days, he'll be as deliciously dominant? Actually get out the cuffs and restrain me for once?

It was yummy. I'm still squirmy happy twelve hours later.

I've finally finished "Little Women", at least the traditional first two books that we call Little Women. Amy, Jo, and Meg are married and Beth has preceded them in the inevitable crossing... Don't ask me why it took nearly all summer to read. It's one of my favorite books, but reading did not happen in July. When I was ill I just didn't have the focus for it. In the hospital I read a little Signet Regency by Allison Lane that I've read so many times I had to order a replacement copy from Amazon last winter - the first copy I had simply fell apart. I've downloaded a host of new books to my Kindle, some even on my reading list, and have started wading through the collected works of Arthur Conan Doyle - Mr. Holmes has always struck me as the quirky, geeky intense sort of computer engineer of today. I think he's sexy.

I have an engagement to read Charlotte's Web with the princess as soon as we finish The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe by Lewis. We're also in the middle of the Oz books (ready for book 5 or 6), so I suspect reading the entire Narnia series will take quite awhile. Never the mind, it will be worth it. There are also plans for Alice in Wonderland, Chitty-Chitty-Bang-Bang, Rebecca, Anne of Green Gables and The Secret Garden. I was also contemplating Mrs. Frisby and The Rats of Nimh, Mr Popper's Penguins and The Mixed-Up Files of Basil E Frankweiler. She loves Oz the best, I think. We read about a chapter a night, along with some poetry or a children's book. When I suggested curtailing reading in favor of staying up later last night, she immediately dismissed the idea. I'd love to add more Laura Ingalls Wilder to the collection, too... I have them all, but can't quite convince the princess. That's a school year's worth of reading anyway, I suspect, if you add in 8 more Oz books, plus something Christmas-related (Baum, Dickens, hmmm...)

We have a list of things to do to get ready for school, which starts in a few days. The princess is excited but a bit nervous I think. Me? It means I'll have to get back to work, productively. I should start that today. Given the opportunity yesterday that I ignored, I probably won't, except that I have work I promised to have done by tomorrow.

It's hard to write about contentment. It sounds so... normal.

Thursday, August 06, 2009

At Home

There are lots of things Chris and I have/had planned to do during the princess' absence. Many of them have been done, some will still come. But, sheesh, it's mid-August and the evenings are already getting chilly.

And I'm having trouble writing about sex and spanking. No, I don't know why. Yes, we're doing it. As frequently as ever, sometimes more so. In fact, while making dinner tonight, Chris grabbed my hand, dragged me over to the sofa, dropped me onto his lap, pulled down my panties, and went right to it.

Then he had to stop so that he could stir the rice.

Somewhat later, he reminded me that there would be a lot more of that - that being immediate consequences for sauciness - if we had evenings alone more frequently. So I interpret that he means that I can tease with impunity as soon as my mother and daughter arrive next week, right?

In any event, another blogger I read posted her weekly menu. My weekly menu starts on whatever day I do the grocery shopping and varies based on schedules, the presence of children and/or company, and the season. But here's this week:

Thursday: grilled London broil (on sale!), chicken-flavored rice, peach cobbler (it was not a healthy meal)
Friday: flank steak stuffed with salami, provolone, onion & basil, diced gold potatoes, salad
Saturday: out somewhere, we don't know where yet, maybe Soup Plantation?
Sunday: chipotle-marinated chicken breast sandwiches with jack cheese & guacamole, corn on the cob
Monday: cream cheese lasagna (this is a secret family recipe ... okay, it came from a magazine decades ago)
Tuesday: tacos made with carne asada (Chris makes the carne asada from skirt steak)
Wednesday: appetizer sampler (crackers & imported cheeses, salami, cauliflower and carrots with dip, etc)
Thursday: spaghetti & meatballs
Friday: out with mom

I have to make a menu to know what groceries to buy. Chris sometimes contributes ideas for the menu, and I always ask before trying a new recipe because when I don't it is invariably a failure.

Lots of red meat this week - next week, not so much. We are indulging because the little one is not here. She does not like red meat as well. So future plans include omelets, stuffed chicken breasts, pancakes (yes for dinner) and vegetable soup with grilled cheese. We had italian out last night, too. It's my favorite cuisine so thank goodness Chris likes pasta!


School starts soon, and Chris just said I should go put on a school uniform.

At least he's not the principal!

Monday, August 03, 2009

Summer Camp at Grandma's

I have a new laptop. I'd like to say that it is my reason for being quiet, and I suppose that's partly true. You see, I FedEx delivered it on my birthday, about ten minutes before Chris got home from work. I barely looked at it that day, as Chris had other plans for my evening. The next day, we went up to San Francisco and spent the night visiting with friends.

And then I spent three days scouring the house. No worries - Chris was gone for work anyway. I have trouble sleeping or blogging when he's not here. I'm too damn lonely.

The princess is gone, and I promised not to touch her room. On the other hand, the bed is covered with a variety of things, the sheets are filthy and I have already boxed up a number of sweaters and coats that are too small for her - I have a smaller cousin in the northern states that have proper winters who loves pretty pink as much as the princess. So I suppose I'm going to break my word and clean in her room a bit more but, really, the bed needs washed.

Moms are so peculiar. They worry about clean sheets and doctor appointments and back-to-school shopping. Grandmas, on the other hand, let their granddaughters spend five hours swimming. The princess has a grandfather who allowed her traipse through Grandma's house with muddy feet, and great-grandparents with a playroom full of toys and a swingset in the backyard for the horde of grandchildren and great-grandchildren who visit regularly. I haven't mentioned the aunt and uncle who came to visit with three playful godchildren for the weekend, a blond goddess who masquerades as Mama's cousin and the princess's out-of-state babysitter, and the bicycle without training wheels that just happens to be pink - Grandma borrowed it from a fellow-grandma-friend whose grandchildren didn't need it this week.

Chris got home last night (this morning?) at 1 AM after a full 8-hour work day and 7 hours of driving. By 9:30 this morning when he left I'd had five orgasms and he'd had two. I was handspanked and paddled. I was told I was naughty though I'd done nothing wrong, promised a hairbrushing, an ass fucking and some outdoor embarrassment. Chris took two showers, too.

It was no surprise to me when Chris fell asleep on the sofa after dinner tonight. Poor man is exhausted.

Me? I'm transferring files from old laptop to new. The princess believes she is inheriting the old one free and clear, and actually told me that she would play online games at pbskids[dot]org "whenever I want."

The child is not going to have as much freedom with it as she thinks, however. She doesn't know the password to log in. This is not one of the indestructible computers in the lab at school. laughing

She has a lot to learn.

I give her the ten days until school starts to make herself an expert.

Now then, I've got to go. I have this software to install, and more files to transfer off of the server. And, you know, I need to get Mah Jong working.

shalom...

Monday, July 27, 2009

Wrong

The doctor says I am going to scar. That means, of course from my biceps to my wrists on both arms (back and forearm) and on both legs from mid-thigh to ankle (both calves and shins and the back of my knees).

I am not happy about this. Beginning next week I will begin investing in anti-scar cream - the pharmacist recommends Mederma - and vitamin E-based lotion. If anyone has suggestions as to what might be a good lotion/cream or for a better anti-scar cream, I'd appreciate it. Mederma is expensive enough that spending a little more for something that would work better would be all right.

The dead skin from the poison oak is still falling off and peeling in a remarkable and quite icky way from my legs - I'm using Eucerin as a moisturizer nearly everywhere at the recommendation of the doctor, who feels the sores are scabbed over enough (and many of the scabs now gone to just be scar tissue) to moisturize to help the itching.

I can once again sleep naked, although I am still self-conscious about Chris seeing my legs unless it's in a context of seeing that they've improved. In the evenings, after bedtime, I still have permission to wear pajama pants (or I did, right now I'm away from home). A couple of nights last week I dressed up - one night I wore stockings and on the other night I donned knee-high socks.

For my birthday this week, I'm shaving. I'll have to be careful on my right leg but I don't care. The hair, after four weeks of not shaving, is worse than the sores. I would have shaved today but I didn't bring a razor with me.

I'm at my parents with the princess. She's staying for awhile - I'm headed home to Chris tomorrow.

It's obvious I haven't been a great mother this summer. The princess told my mom a couple of times today that the real fun will start once I leave. She also said, quite clearly, that she wished my mom was her mom. I don't think she realized I could hear but I was unreasonably and irrationally hurt, probably because I know how inadquate I've been lately, and how little I've done with her.

I want her to miss me, you know. She misses Daddy already, she says. She can't wait for me to go home though, since I took a nap all afternoon while she played in the sprinklers outside for two hours.

Clearly this entry is an exercise in futility. I cannot compete, especially after the last three weeks.

Still, I won't cry until I get home to Chris. I just won't.